Saturday, October 10, 2009

10-9-09 Getting Better

so i really have mixed feelings about getting better.
My heartburn is gone
but i have to eat 2 small meals a day because of te medication.

i dont know what to do.

on the plus side i may have celiacs disease... which may seem wierd that that is on the plus side.. but if it is true i will basically have to cut most carbs out of my diet... and since i am a vegetarian that means mostly friuts and veggies.

current weight : 122.2 (ughh)

currently watching: Trashy Lifetime movies (love it!)

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

10-7-09 Tests Tests and more Tests

So my mom schedualed some doctors appointments and they are going to run a shit load of tests.

I have to drink that barium stuff so that they can x-ray my intestines and then i might have to have like a camera or somehting down my throat but hopefully not.

and i really have mixed feelings about it. because i want to get better and i know they can help fix whatever it is that is fucked up in my stomach
but at the same time i am scared of what they might find.
My family has a history of lots of fucked up genetic disorders and stuff.
i dont want this to turn out to be something i will have to maintain my whole life.

I just want to get in, get out, and get on with it.

anyway. still watching the scale but im not cracking down on fasting since that just makes my pain so much worse. I am deffinatly watching my food intake though.

it helps that the high calorie and high fat foods upset my stomach so that is just more motivation not to eat them.
i've basically been living of of rice cakes and oatmeal for 2 weeks. very balnd . but it helps my stomach more than any ofthe medication they give me.

Oh and i dont know if i already mentioned this.
I got 2 gerbils.
i was feeling really down after my pet chicken, alannah was killed
so my mom let me adopt 2 gerbils.
they are 2 little boys their names are hanni (who is white) and Jack (who is all black except a stripe down his chin and neck and his 2 front paws)

hanni is a blast. he will jsut fall asleep if you pat is forehead
but jack doesnt like me very much yet. I think it is because he is so young, he is younger than hanni and more active and he just doesnt like being help.

but i am earning his trust.
Their favorite food is sunflower seeds so i feed those to them in my hand and they are so cute when they eat.

anyway.. enough about my pets haha

currently watching: America's Next Top Model

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


Okay so i dont know why i have been so sick lately but i have.

about 2 weeks ago i started getting massive heartburn which was odd to me because i wasnt eating anything.

So it has been getting progressively worse over the past 2 weeks and finally on wednasday night i woke up screaming in pain at like midnight because of the pain in my chest from heartburn.
I took a shit load of tums and stuff but it wasnt helping so i eventually had to eat some crackers to just like push everything back down. And the next morning i was in so much pain that i was throwing up.

I went to the doctor and they said that they dont knopw whats wrong. It's probably reflux but none of the medication they are perscribng for that has been helping. tums arent helping , pepto's not helping.

and then sunday night I has experiencing so much pressure in my chest from the heartburn that i was having trouble breathing so my dad brought me to the emergency room and they gave me some stuff to numb my throat .. and it did. but i was still having trouble breathing, which obviously hurts.

and now they are telling me that i need to eat small portions of food atleast every hour durring the day to help push everything down... and i can tell you that that just isnt happening.

I havent been able to on the ABC diet for about a week and a half to 2 weeks so the scale is telling me bad things

Current weight: roughly 122.

so thats 2 pounds up since 2 weeks ago ...

uhh okay anyway so sorry i havent posted in 2 weeks, i really havent even been able to move around.

it is a month into school and i have missed atleast 4 or 5 days already so im hoping this stomach thing will just go away so i dont miss anymore.

Currently watching : The Biggest Loser